In a home with strangers

 I just woke up relieved that this was a dream!  I had some kind of arrangement with a family of strangers to use their front room to study.  I don't remember what I was studying or how old I was in this dream.  The arrangement was to just let myself in any time.  I arrived in the evening and the room was dark.  I tried to turn on the light but it didn't work.  The owner of the house came and fixed it and got it working.  I opened my binder and got to work.  It was a little chilly so I  grabbed a blanket from the back of the couch.  I dozed off somehow and when I woke up, my pants were gone!  I looked all over the room and they were no where to be found.  It appeared that there was a basket of clean clothes in front of me but all the pants were in kid sizes.  I was so confused!  It's not like I had been violated or anything, I just didn't have pants.  I had planned to look in the laundry room but I ended up waking up and I was so relieved!  

Where did this come from?  There was definitely an element of panic and anxiety with the whole missing pants bit but why was I in a home with strangers?  Why didn't the light switch work?  My brain sure conjures up the weirdest things!

Screaming Out Loud

 Last night I dreamed that there was a man trying to break into my house through the window and I screamed!  My poor husband has to deal with these types of nightmares a lot.  I don't know why they happen or why I can't control myself when dreaming.  

My hair is falling out!

 I've had so many dreams of my teeth falling out but this time my hair fell out and I did not look good bald!  What a relief it was when I woke up!

I just can't seem to return with shoes!

 November 20, 2024

I am pretty sure this dream was panic related but it was a new one.  I was helping at a boy scout activity and realized I didn't have shoes on so I rode home on a child sized jeep for some reason and suddenly I was back at the church again with still no shoes.  I went back again and still came back without shoes.  Why the child sized jeep?  And what was the significance of having no shoes?

Unused gifts, a scary doll, etc

 Last night's dream was definitely unique and I can't seem to make any sense of it.  I was cleaning out a closet that belonged to a child, though it was unclear whose.  I found bags and bags of unopened gifts.  Tons of toys still in the package that weren't ever opened.  The strange thing is, this child was supposed to be underprivileged so I didn't understand why they never opened hardly anything.  There was one doll that looked like it was well loved, but upon picking it up, it opened it's eyes and started talking to me.  It suddenly turned evil like the "Chucky" doll in the "Child's Play" movie.  I haven't even seen that movie, just previews and such but I knew I wouldn't like it and I believe it created a fear of dolls in many people.  I looked around and there were a ton of doll clothes and accessories that were opened and played with.  I started packing up the clothes, but the doll was using every tactic possible to keep me from doing it.  It tried scaring me, it tried being sweet, it tried pleading and begging.  I was so freaked out that I left the room and it followed me!  Suddenly I am on a pool deck and someone saw it and threw it in the pool.  That's all I remember!  I was relieved when I woke up and realized it was all a dream.

The Caravan

 Last night I dreamed that I was in a big van with my family but my mom was by herself in the car ahead of us.  She was leading us along.  Every once in a while she would get out, wait for us, point the next direction to go, then run back to her car and keep driving.  I think this dream is a death metaphor and represents my biggest fear.  I know someday my mom will leave this earth but I am not ready for that yet.  She is still relatively young.

A hole in the floor

 Last night my dream was extra weird.  I was at work (I work in a retail store) and I noticed that the floor was bouncy in the spot where I was standing.  Upon further examination I discovered that there was a hole in the floor with carpet stretched over it.  The carpet was starting to fray and no one was worried about it except me.  

This is just weird

 Recently I dreamed that I was a guest in someone's house.  I wanted to take a shower so I got ready and gathered my things and then couldn't find the bathroom!  I felt lost, confused, and a little panicked!  It seems that many of my dreams involved being lost.

New Dream,

 Last night I dreamt that I was in a school cafeteria and I wanted to buy lunch for someone who was less fortunate so I asked the lunch lady to tell me who could use a free lunch.  She gave me the name of someone and I bought a lunch for them. The line was really long and in this lunch room you order the food in one line and then wait for it to be ready.  Mine was sitting there ready to go but no one had time to give it to me and I didn't have access to it without climbing over a counter which I didn't want to do. For some reason, by the time I got the food, lunch was over and neither they nor I got to eat.

Right now, I have been trying so hard to help those less fortunate so I am sure this has something to do with that, but I am still not entirely sure if this dream is trying to tell me something or if it's just random mixed up thoughts that turned into a meaningless dream.  Do all dreams have meaning?

Dreams or Ghosts?

 It has been a ridiculous amount of time since my last post.  I wonder if it has anything to do with my medication which I am no longer taking.  I was diagnosed with MS about 7 years ago and I am between meds right now.  It's only been about a week and a half since I stopped the medication but I have already had 3 weird/disturbing dreams.

In my first dream, I discovered a secret door in my house and when I opened it, tons of cats and dogs came out and took over my house!  Also there was a weird rodent like creature the size of a cat but resembled a guinea pig with spots like a fawn.  This dream was definitely unique.  I have no idea what it might be telling me.

In my second dream, there was a barricade about to crash into me and I yelled, "Danger! Danger!" I've had similar dreams before of things about to crash into me or crush me or whatever so this one was not completely unique.

The most disturbing dream was this morning and I am still unsure if it was a dream or a ghost.  I heard someone yelling, "Help me, please, please help me!"  It sounded like it was coming from another room in the house like the basement or something but it was a male voice and I only have females in my basement.  I don't believe in ghosts the way some do, but where did the cries come from?  Why would my mind drum up something like that?

Panic

As a mother raising three teenagers, somehow I keep myself together despite all of the drama.  I wish I could say that about my dreams.  Lately they have had an overlying theme: panic! 

Last night, I dreamt that I was in high school again trying to get ready for PE, but I couldn't find my locker, I couldn't find my clothes, and by the time I had it all together, the class was over! 

With the stress I have been under I would expect to be falling apart, but I guess due to getting plenty of rest, eating regularly, taking vitamins, and keeping to my routines, I manage to hold it together.  Or perhaps it is Divine intervention?  Whatever it is, I am grateful!

December 7, 2017

Today I awoke with a unique but crazy dream.  In my dream I felt the need to floss my teeth.  When I did, I discovered all sorts of dead insects in my mouth and they just kept coming!  It was so disgusting!  I used my toothbrush to try and get them out, but there was no end to the amount of insects!  One would think this had to do with guilt over foul language or something, but my language is very clean 99.9% of the time.  So I have no idea where this dream came from!

On the plus side, the amount of "screaming" nightmares has decreased significantly.  People wonder why I don't like horror movies or haunted houses.  I get plenty of that from my dreams!

More craziness and what I have discovered about my health since.

So, lately my dreams all seem to have a theme.  Last night I was in a parking lot and discovered that my car had been stolen and no one would help me.  In order to leave the parking lot, I had to stand in line and be checked out the way they check you at airport security.  It actually wasn't until after I had been through this line that I discovered that the car wasn't there!

I had a dream the other night about not knowing how to get home.  I just kept going and going, and I never did figure it out.

I also had a dream that my hair fell out as I was brushing it!  I have had dreams of my teeth falling out, but never a dream about my hair!  It was so real to me!

So, here is what I have discovered about my health since I started the blog.  I have been diagnosed with relapsing remitting multiple schlerosis.  I am still in a very early stage and other than having to take medication and vitamins daily, life is fairly normal.  Could these crazy dreams have something to do with this diagnosis?  It makes me want to do a survey and find out.

After years and years of crazy dreams, I have finally decided to write about them.  For this, my first page, I thought I would talk about my recurring dreams.  I have decided to just list them in a random order.

1.  Teeth Falling Out.  I suddenly discover a loose tooth and then before I know it, all of my teeth are loose and they start falling out!

2.  Failing to Find an Exit.   I am inside a building trying to leave, but I can't find the exit.  Every door I see leads to more doors, but none of them get me out!

3.  I Can Fly.  I jump into the air and I just keep on going!  I can glide through the air and float over every obstacle to get where I want to go.  This dream occasionally happens when I am lucid and I can use this power to fly away from unpleasant situations.

4.  An Intruder is In My Room.  I think I am awake, and there is some creepy intruder in my room standing over me!  I wake up screaming!

5.  Something is About to Fall on Me.  I think I am awake and there is some kind of earthquake. Something is about to fall on me and I wake up screaming!

6.  I am Seized Upon By a Negative Force.  I was being possessed by an evil force that would take over my body and I would try to scream but not be able to.

7.  I Can't Spit Out My Gum.  I am chewing gum and decide to spit it out because it's lost it's flavor.  I try to spit it out, but it's stuck to my tongue and I just keep pulling and pulling, but I can't get rid of it!

8.  Restroom Perils.  I really need to use the restroom, but all of the stalls are extremely filthy and they don't have doors on them!

9.  Water Evaporating Before I Can Drink it.  I am so thirsty so I grab a glass of water to drink, but it evaporates before it reaches my mouth leaving me even more thirsty!  I typically wake up from this dream with a very dry mouth and must get water!

10.  Being Naked.  I am walking down the street and suddenly discover that I am not wearing clothes!  All I have is a backpack!

11.  The Past and Present Collide.  I am back in high school or junior high, but I am still married with children!